I have noticed more and more than when you are pregnant men stop looking at you in a sexual way, l, not that I had loads of men lusting after me at all but I did get an occasional glance. Now when I ‘window shop’ I am barely acknowledged as being a member of the opposite sex, it is very strange.

Well another retirement do and another night of feeling crap and falling out. I did try talking to hubby about how I was feeling but he gets so defensive and always thinks that I am having a go at him. He totally refuses the idea of relationship counseling and says everything is ok and nothing is wrong and it is all in my head and I am trying to cause problems. He says that he is not trying to avoid sex and he still fancies me but he just has to… paint the room, go shopping, feeling tried, hurt neck, too busy, having a bath, no time etc etc etc……

Well went out last night and you can tell it went well because I am back on here!! He started flirting with the waitresses not loads and loads but enough to make me feel really shit as I sat there feeling fat and ugly (the waitress was very pretty and about 16) then I caught him looking at her as she walked by with that air of confidence that only pretty 16 year olds can have, it made me feel so jealous and mad. All night people were coming up to me (women of course) to tell me how fab I looked and how lovely my bump was and my hubby never once said you look great or anything and I had made a very big effort.

I told him it made me feel shit and he got in a right mood, said I was always having a go at him and that I always ruin our evenings out and that all our problems are caused by him and he can’t do anything right……. So I thought, well I am not sitting here in the corner not speaking to you, so I left him and went talking to other people, and ended up having a good night, much cheered up by having a right laugh with a male work colleague who had me in stitches. I went back to him later and said ‘do you want to go’ it was clear he didn’t but I didn’t want to stay – I was tired and it was 11:30 so we went. Things are ok(ish) now but what can I say to him?

Thanks for the lovely comments, they mean a lot to me.

xx