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Fat, pregnant and soon to be alone?

by Beanyem @ 16/03/2008 - 09:03:15

Last night was my fathers retirement do so my sisters were coming to my house to get ready and we were all going as a surprise for my dad. Things have been getting much better with my hubby so I was looking forward to the night. To say that I had an awful time is an understatement, it was shit, very shit. I can’t remember how it happened but hub and me started arguing, all about nothing as all our arguments always are and that was the night ruined.

He just sat in the corner playing with balloons ignoring me and singing along to the lyrics and I felt torn, should I leave him on his own and go and talk to members of the family or try to talk to him when his whole body language is telling me to fuck off. Well I tried to talk to him and we just ended up bickering even more, it just feels like since we got married (in August) things have not been the same between us, or is it since I got pregnant? Everyone is saying how great I look and I am blooming and I feel so miserable all the time, I am so fed up with trying to pretend that my life is great, newly married and baby on the way when things are breaking up. I just want to get my relationship back on track and I don’t know how to, I don’t know what to do to make things better. Since I became pregnant he has been less interested in sex even though hew swears that this is not the case but I think the bump puts him off, I understand that but I wish he would be honest as I am starting to feel like it is not the bump that he doesn’t not fancy but me.

What should I do? My parents are worried about me and dad and mum were giving me sympathetic looks all night and no doubt I will have to field off questions about things are and try to convince them that I am ok, what else can I do? He sat singing to lyrics and we didn’t talk, I came home and went straight to bed, he followed up later, switched the light on even though he knew I was in bed, he got into bed and said and did nothing. I ignored him and tried to calm the panicking feeling inside and finally I got to sleep. He is still in bed now and I fell half angry with him and half like I just want him to kiss and hug me and say sorry.

Hope you are all happy out in blog land.

xx


 
 

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sidejumpsidejump [Member]
2008-03-16 @ 09:29

I understand how you are feeling hunny. My Husband went totally off sex when I was pregnant, although he was not so into it before either. Men have real problems talking about their feelings. It is easier for him to retreat into himself. I know this is no help to you, women need to talk it through, men see it as a weakness if they need to talk about emotions and stuff.
You need to sort this out now though, as it will not get any better once baby is here. Babies take more time and energy than anyone could believe possible, and you will need his 100% support. I would really recommend a relationship counselor, and ask your husband to come along. If you explain to him that your marriage is important to you, and you don't want to be arguing all the time etc, i am sure he will come. He might need some time to think about it, but he needs to come. This stress is bad for your baby.
If he won't come, then go alone, but you need support.
As to today, maybe write him a letter telling him you love him etc, how you feel. No accusations remember, just how you feel when he does certain things, or how you feel about your relationship, your concerns etc, a lot like you have blogged here. Then go for a walk, or visit your parents or a friend whatever, and leave him to read it. When you return he should be ready to discuss. If he feels under attack though, he will get defensive and angry, and nothing will be achieved. So take it easy. Good luck

BeanyemBeanyem [Member]
2008-03-27 @ 13:11

Thanks, have been talking and things are easier, I think he is scared of the birth and stuff spo he is backing away. We have had complications and that might have affected things.
Men are rubbish!!

sameoldsameold pro
2008-03-16 @ 09:34

Hi,

Congratulations on your pregnancy, I think maybe you are feeling very insecure because you have your bump and you feel fat and ugly..Well thats how I felt when I had my kids and especially when my now Ex partner didn't show me any attention. You think to yourself dont you "wow I'm giving you a baby here" and your treating me like shit, as for the sex thing my ex never came near me when I was pregnant and I think thats when you need the closeness the most.

He used to say that we never made love because he thought that he would hurt the baby (even though he did have a big willy, I thought oh as if), but it surely must be weird for them as well. I think when your Husband gets up have a chat with him, ask him whats going on and tell him how you feel because if you dont start talking and getting close you could end up like me 3 kids (all to him) never talking for ten years like sharing your house with a stranger and please believe me it is not nice..Sort it today honey and get him to give you lots of hugs.

Hope things work out for you.

Emma.

BeanyemBeanyem [Member]
2008-03-27 @ 13:12

I hope things are better with your hubby, you are so right though men should show more appreciation. Thanks for the comment, it was really nice of you.

ladee-birdladee-bird pro
2008-03-16 @ 14:43

Well I shall start by saying. Hello you, long time no see. Congratulations on your marriage and pregnancy 88|

You've had a lot of change recently, getting married and falling pregnant its bound to have an affect on you both. Change does that to people. Things have maybe moved faster than you'd care for it to have. Sit down and have a good heart to heart tell each other how you're both really feeling. Hopefully this will clear the air and will help you to adapt to your new lives together.

Good luck honey

{{hugs}}

xx

BeanyemBeanyem [Member]
2008-03-27 @ 13:13

Great to hear from you, things have been very strange here. After we got married we thought we would try for a baby and that was it, preganant in four days so have not had time to get used to the marriage yet. I hope thigns have been good with you, will pop onto your blog now and see how you are. Take care. xx

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