Ok, well as you know I am getting married in August and me and my bf had a discussion/argument/me-stomping-off-because-he-was-not-listening/debate about whihc hymns to use.

The problem is that none of us know many.

We thought of:

Give me oil in my lamp
Lord of all holiness (I think)
When a knight won his spurs

Oh and for first dance:

Easy listening, we have a singer..... yes, a wedding singer.

Or.......

But without the coling firth bits, sorry was the best I could find.

Anyway, let me know

Thanks. xx

Oh dear, the crush has not gone away.....
*sigh*

On Tuesday I was at my Uncles funeral which was very sad, he was a great person and everyone loved him and the fact that he has gone is still raw and painful. Seeing my Dad so upset was awful as he does not show his emotions easily and I feel so bad for my cousins who have lost their dad and my aunt who has lost her husband. My Uncle knew he was dieing because he had cancer and nothing could be done to help him – they found out about it too late. He wrote a letter which was read out during his funeral service, he said not to be upset because he had had a good life that was filled with love. He said that he can meet death feeling content because he has achieved everything he wanted and he has had a happy life. Still seeing the coffin and knowing that he is laying inside it is so very sad.

The wake was ok, everyone was trying to be cheerful and remember the good times, they had a slide show of pictures from him during his life on the TV and these were funny. My dad was on some of them when he was younger and everyone said how much he looked like me!

My family is all looking forward to the wedding; they said it would be good to all get together on a happy time.

This made me panic, there is till too much to do and I hate people asking me about it.

Tuesday was a very sad day, I cried all day and since I have found it hard to stop.

I miss him, I do hope Heaven is real.

Hi to all,

Sorry for disappearing off the radar for so long.

There has been loads going on, some good and some bad so......

Well, I got to keep my job which is great news.

However, I will now be working directly with the deputy and a someone I don't really know very well

But! The school is shut for the foreseeable future because of the floods. My class was flooded when I was in there with my children, it was all very exciting. They were great, they didn't get upset and they thought it was great fun. It did feel strange though and I have been in work all week clearing up, washing Lego with detol (is that how you spell it?).

Going into work tomorrow but might be sent home () because the Industrial cleaners are moving in!!!! I will have to hide from then big spraying things.

At home, things haven been a bit sad, my uncle dies and the funeral is on Tuesday. My dad is devastated. My lovely sister has to have a breast scan because she has found a lump, really scary stuff.

Things with the bf are usual, he has been stomping about like a teenager because I left the toothpaste of the stairs! I feel half amused and half annoyed when he gets like that. The other day he shook his fists at the washing machine because it wouldn't work properly, I laughed at him and asked if this strategy had worked - it didn't.

Had a good weekend, with idontknowwhy but have spent loads of money I don't have.

Anyway, finished retreating from the world and now I’m back. I hope the past month or so has been good for you.
xx